This is just a quick note of sorts.
The last year and a half have been very difficult. I tried to get back into the swing of things with church. I did not like being around large groups of people and my faith was all over the place. I lost my job that I had for 11 years. After nearly a year of being unemployed, I finally started getting interviews but no call backs. I prayed to God, I begged God, I cried and cried and cried to God. Nothing was happening. Depression set in!
I had prayed, before losing my job, to not be a burden to my family during my unemployment. Money was tight and got tighter. I spent most days crying. I did not want to even get out of bed. Then I prayed for a job, the right job. I told God that I would leave it up to Him, since he knows what is best for me. I still applied for employment but nothing. I became more and more depressed.
I asked God “why?” Why am I still here? Why should I even try? Why should I care? Why was I ever born? I wanted to know why would He let me be a burden to my family. Then I changed what I prayed for…
I prayed for God to stop putting this on my family. I prayed that, if anyone was to suffer for my being unemployed, it should be me that suffers. I asked God to let me suffer, not my family!
I was still depressed. I decided to try harder with my business that is virtually non-existent. I got a small sale. It made me feel a little better. Then I noticed that the Catholic Ladies Relief Society is having a craft fair at the end of October. I decided to ask my brother for the money for a spot. Then I got another sale. I could pay my half of the fees myself (with my sister-in-law paying her half). Then I started really working on pieces for the fair when I got some more sales. I could buy supplies to make more items. And that was when it happened.
I saw an ad for a job at my bank. I had applied for a few teller positions, but no calls after the interviews. I figured “what the heck! I’ll apply.” After sending my resume and filling out an application online, I had to finish a questionaire to fill out. It was late and, after awhile, I realized that it was 165 questions! I almost stopped, but finished it anyway.
I got a call for phone interview. Then I got a call for a face to face interview. Then I got THE call, sort of…they would have to complete a background check. That did not go smoothly. I missed one link. I missed a phone call. But I got the job.
I officially start on the first of October. It has good pay. It is not full-time, which gives me time to work on my business more. And I get benefits! It is perfect for me! But God already knew that.